ShellBeachHopeful's Journal

At it again.
Just rolled double sixes five times in around 11 rolls.
Granted I'm not throwing them very far, but still.
And it gets me theway I kept losing when I wasn't at all in a good mood.
It happened more than once.

A year ago.

Back then, I hadn't ever played at a craps table.
I assumed they put the dice in a cup and you had to throw them out of the cup.
I didn't know you could pick up the dice and arrange them any way you want before you throw them.
Started doing that a few days ago, with the three's facing up and the two's facing me (i.e. both dice in the same starting position).
I haven't gotten into any sort of frame of mind like a year ago (I did it five days in a row last August).
I seem to roll 11 a lot more than 1 out of 18 times, which is my favorite roll since I learned on August 25th that it's "yo eleven yo", which sounds better than "acey duecy".
And it's a horn bet.
And I seem to get double sixes more than 1 out of 36 times.
I'm planning on going tommorrow night.

23 years ago something big happened on July 9th.
I think it changed the direction of my life.
So I was going to go to Atlantic City today (and win over $100,000) but I'm not sure if I'm going.

What happened 23 years ago involved a big fire, my badly burned arm, and a dream.
I'm about to work on some electrical wiring.
Hmmmmm.

Two things in the past 24 hours :

I just read a liberal columnist complaining about the anti-semetic anti-israeli crap that Arab newspapers routinely put out.
And he mentioned how thier presses are controlled by the government.
Controlled by the government?
Why?
Because what their citizens read affects what they think?
Gay activists on tv reading not just hate mail but death threats from people quoting Eminem.
But hey, those anti-gay guys would hate gays just as much without the song.
I mean, a person who hates gays or hates people in general isn't going to hate them anymore just because they listen to a song by a powerful rapper singing about killing faggots.

Besides, Eminem was just joking.
That's the important thing, his intention.
And those gays getting death threats?
Just a joke.
No one kills gay people because they're gay.
Just ask Mathew Sheppard.

I think we'd all be better off if our neighbors listened to songs about killing thier nieghbors.
That would be cool.
Especially if one of them is a picked on depressed high school kid.

And since songs and the media don't have any affect, why not play a song called "Finish The Job!".
It could be about highschool kids going into their schools with shotguns and shooting all the jocks.
They could play it on the radio over and over.
And since the media doesn't have any effect, there shouldn't be any problem.

Now that some guy has tried to cyberfuck me, I'm thinking I might change my icon.
So many of my old posts won't make sense anymore though.

I absolutely believe people have been brainwashed into believing that the media has no effect.
"Brainwashed" is too strong of a term, but I can't think of how else to say it.
And who did the brainwashing?
I've seen it on the Simpson's, episodes trying to get people against censorship.
And the WWF has a disliked character coming out saying "you shouldn't watch this, I want to tell you what you should watch" yada yada.
And a lot of ~~millionaires~~ pop stars say it to.
No, the media has no effect on anything, that's why the WWF came up with that character, to effect people's attitudes against censorship.

And I know I've seen plenty of movie ads that say things like
"This movie will inspire you",
"This movie will change the way you look at..."
but these movies have no effect on what people think or feel.
And what people think or feel has no effect on what they do.

And songs?
Please.
No songs say things like "I'm going to kill..."
And people never repeat song lyrics in their heads or sing them out loud, or listen to the songs over and over.
And saying something to yourself over and over never made anyone do anything.

I never once saw someone who kept getting depressed listening to Pink Floyd or Depeche Mode .
So ok, maybe people can get depressed by listening to a depressing song, but having a kid who's picked on and pissed off listening to music about killing people, that has no effect.
Niether does watching a movie where a kid walks into his classroom and shoots his classmates with a shotgun, like the movie those Columbine kids talked about.
No effect at all.

Obviously, these movies, songs, etc, don't cause people to go out and kill people, otherwise we'd all be murderers and most of us would be dead.
But to think that they're not doing anything, not giving certain people the push they need to go over the edge?

I think that's complete bullshit.

I think Clinton knew how easy it is to manipulate people these days.
I know he took polls all the time to decide what to say.
I'm wondering if he took it a step further - getting peoples opinions, then trying out different things to say to see what could be said to change thier minds in the direction he wanted them changed.
I have no idea if anyone's doing that yet or not, but I think the professional pollsters will eventually get that one down too.
This isn't to say that they'll be able to get people to believe anything, but...

A great quote from Hitler's propaganda minister : "If you tell people a lie often enough, they'll eventually believe it".
I think they started out WWII by continually claiming that Hungary(?) was part of Germany.
Then they invaded it without too much fuss and with the support of the German people because "it was part of Germany".
And of course they managed to commit the Holocaust in what was basically a normal country.
True, their economy was in shambles, but that's not enough for an otherwise normal country to try and kill off an entire ethnic group.
They kept repeating lies about Jews.
Just as Arafat's administration does, in schools, on television, and in Mosques.

Note to anti-abortion people (0.07% of LJ users)
Instead of being represented by the most vocal, intolerent members of your group, and instead of picketing clinics and screaming abortion is murder, why not do what gay people did - use mass manipulation through the media.
You got a good start a couple years back with that rootbeer commercial - the one with the pregnant women and her "baby" inside her playing the drums b/c he was excited about the rootbeer.
That's what you need to do - subtly get it into people's minds that what's in there is alive.

Screaming at people isn't going to do anything.

I'm thinking now that I'll stay here, at least until June.
Bought a gym membership today and worked out for the first time since December.
Hopefully I'll find an apartment with a short lease that doesn't cost too much, though I know I could get something better/much better in Miami or Arizona (plus those places have much better weather and their universities have a lot more babes than here).
I've been trying to get myself to move to one of those places for a year and a half now.

I -if I get to it- will look for an apartment tommorow near school.
I think I could actually make a lot of money (especially if I started tutoring guys, which I did yesterday and today), or at least a decent amount if I lived there and people actually knew my phone number.
I've already got 7 people without almost anyone knowing my (parents) phone number.
I used to have way too many people calling every semester.
I don't know if I want that again or not, but if I did it would need to be at a school full of babes with personality and rich parents - there's a guy at Syracuse who charges $60 an hour, this school here couldn't afford that.
Tutoring lower level math and stat can be boring - I need babes with personality to make the time go by and the job enjoyable.
But this place is okay, definitely better than a year or two ago. Now it's basically smart people, whereas a few years back it was babes with personality.
The admission standards went way up and I think it was the transition that sucked , and now it doesn't suck. There was hardly anyone who graduated last year that I liked - probably less than 20 people, whereas in '97 there were probably more than 150.
And I've trying to get myself to get a real job for three years now.
Hmmmmmm.

From a black columnist (William Raspberry) :
Black Americans have been screaming about the disparate sentences for crack and powder cocaine for a decade -- ever since it became clear that the main effect of the 1988 drug-control legislation was a wildly disproportionate incarceration rate for black drug offenders.

Six days before he left office, President Clinton came riding to the rescue. Well, maybe not to the rescue, but he did recommend that the next sheriff give serious thought to forming a posse to do something about the problem.

The recommendation came in a Jan. 14 op-ed piece that the lame-duck president wrote for the New York Times. He spoke with considerable passion about his desire that America move toward racial fairness and reconciliation. Then: "We should also reexamine our federal sentencing policies, particularly mandatory minimum sentences for nonviolent offenders. We should immediately reduce the disparity between crack and powder-cocaine sentences."

Maybe it slipped his mind during his eight-year presidency, which coincided almost exactly with the incarceration explosion.

Yes, explosion. According to a new report from the Justice Policy Institute (JPI), more inmates were added to prison and jail populations under Clinton than under any other president in American history. In federal prisons alone, more inmates were added on Clinton's watch than under former Presidents Bush and Reagan combined.
...
Interestingly, JPI is looking to Bush as the best hope for sentencing reform. The new report notes that Bush has expressed an interest in "making sure the powder-cocaine and crack-cocaine penalties are the same" and in diverting nonviolent offenders from prison into treatment. A Bush-Cheney campaign white paper called for providing an additional $1 billion for states to expand local drug treatment programs.
...
Smart-aleck question: Who would get more credit among black voters -- Bush for reforming the sentencing disparities we've been complaining about for so long? Or Clinton, for looking for office space in Harlem?

Current Mood : Hoping the day is near when the majority of people no longer listen to people who say things to make them feel good and instead look at the their actions.

and I remember 5 or so years ago, Shaggy and Droopy driving the city streets at night :

Did you know they don't have dog pounds in France?
- They don't?
No.
- Why not?
It's because they use the metric system.
- Oh.
- I see.
Do you know what they call a dog pound in France?
- What?
Pooch Royale

Current Mood : Hoping Pulp Fiction wasn't too long ago

It was a j divided by k
with maybe an equals capital d.
If anything I was bitching (actually, I was) about the fact that It's very hard to read or post comments.

How many comments never got posted b/c LJ still doesn't work?
Don't worry, once the new servers are in this won't be a problem.

I want to do some bonghits now dammit!
Have to go to "work" in 3 and a half hours.
Figures I got up at 5:30AM - a few hours earlier than I've been going to sleep lately.

I meant to make this prediction a while back :
3 and a half years from now, the Democrats will be saying "a vote for Nader is a vote for Bush", and the Green Party won't get federal funding for the 2008 election either.

And another predction (more iffy than the last, and definitely unpopular, but)
Dubya will be a great president.
Not a good one but one of the great ones.

He will change the tone.
I think he is already doing this (the Ashcroft nomination and what didn't occur there, for example).

We'll see, we'll see, but that is my prediction.

Prediction (very long term)
Someday, people will look at the big bang theory the way we now look at the earth is flat theory.
I completely do not believe in the big bang.
I just think it makes sense to people based on the limited information at hand, just like it once made sense to think that the earth is flat.
The things Einstein came up with no one had a clue about (for example :time ticks by at different rates depending on how fast you're going)
It seems like there could just as well be a lot of other bizarre physic's theories that no one's come up with yet.
And maybe there's things that would require someone 1000 times as smart as Einstein to come up with.
Like where did everything come from?

Here's a thought :
Depressed creative people shouldn't be allowed to write factual sounding statements.
Same goes for guilty intellectuals.
The problem is a lot of other people believe their depressing guilty bullshit statements.
I guess because they worded it well or they sounded smart.
There was some online IQ test I took back in September, one of the levels was something like "you're smart, not a genius, but good at convincing other people that you are".
I think I knew a guy like that recently.
I didn't know him well enough to see that he definitely wasn't a genius, but other people thought that he was.
I did know him well enough to know that he was often full of shit, I'm guessing most people didn't see that.
People often seem to believe the content of what's said if it was said well, or said by someone who looked good and sounded confident.
I think girls at an early age should be given lessons on how to watch out for smooth-talking-compulsive-lying-male-sluts (including ones who don't inhale).
And it's not just deprssing or guilty statements.
Statements like "If the glove don't fit, we must acquit".
Sounds good.
But it proves nothing except that lawyers know how to manipulate people.

I saw in the paper how everyone who went to the Superbowl was photographed
and the photos were analyzed by computer software and compared to a database of known terrorists and criminals.

With the continual increases in computer speed, memory storage, camera picture quality, face recognition software, and internet connection speed, and the decreases in the costs of all these things, law enforcement could soon have the ability to find any known criminal who goes out in public.
I don't know if this will happen, but it seems they could have security camera's from Mcdonald's, shopping malls, sporting events, concerts, etc, etc and even all those traffic cameras sending photo's over the internet and have them compared to some huge database.
And I'm not totally sure if this is bad.
Usually, I think this kind of thing is bad because of all the "potential" abuses, but now I'm thinking what I said could be true : they could find any criminal who goes out in public.
Murderers, rapists, con-men, dead-beat dads, terrorists, it seems like the crime rate could be seriously reduced.
And it seems like they could have this in less than twenty, probably less than ten, maybe less than five years.
And with cameras everywhere, and potential criminals knowing it, it could be safer to walk the streets, especially with more of the criminals locked up.
It could even get to the point where you wouldn't have to lock your car - just like people didn't up until the late 60's.

I'm not sure if it's good or bad, but it seems inevitable, and not too far off in the future.

You might need to be older, or something, but
if the following is funny to you, check out the journal it came from.

"5:05 pm - NOTE TO SELF #155
Today, I noticed that "M&M" candies have been replaced by a new, similar chocolate candy. It's too bad, because I liked M&Ms. I haven't tried the new "W&Ws" yet, but they're probably just as good. Hopefully, it'll be easier to peel the hard, colored wrapper off these."

"1:13 pm - NOTE TO SELF #161
The following is a list of the top 10 films that I would most like to see a sequel to:

Titanic
JFK
The Doors
Glory
Saving Private Ryan
Castaway
Reservoir Dogs
Deliverance
Malcolm X
Ishtar "

"10:44 am - NOTE TO SELF #152
In the news, an employee at a truck engine plant in Chicago killed 4 co-workers and then turned the gun on himself, bringing the body count to 5. He was angry over the federal prison sentence he got for his role in stealing parts from the plant. Two people who knew him said they were "shocked" because "he was such a nice guy." I guess if he weren't a "nice guy" he would have used a butter knife and made them suffer. Here's my advice to all you folks out there who are planning a murder-suicide...kill yourself first. "

I like this exchange so much that I'm posting it here
I'll refer to the other person as "OP" (not to be confused with Richie Cunningham)
The very begining, in quotes, is a quote from "OP"'s creative writing journal entry

ME :

"What separates us well-meaning citizens from our criminal brethren - our not-so-distant counterparts - is an excuse. We, for fear of the wrath of the law...

It might be true for some people, but not for most people.
If it were true for most people we would have gone extinct thousands of years ago.

OP :

Well it's a wonder we haven't so far, what with nuclear missiles and slightly-off leaders. I'm not saying that sentence is correct, but I wouldn't discount any aspect of it. Maybe we're still a living breathing race because the fear of the law keeps us in check. Who knows. :-)

Me :

My point, which I didn't quite make, was that (many) thousands of years ago the rule of law wasn't around to keep people in check. And if most humans really were murderers, we would have gone extinct back then.
Try looking at monkeys sometime.
They don't have the rule of law, do they go around murdering each other very often?
Same goes for wild dogs, or any other species.

OP :

Well whether it's LAW or the fear of personal retribution, something keeps us from murdering rampantly.

ME :

The fact that monkeys and most people don't listen to rap music probably helps.

Know any girls with a webcam who go to places like Mplayer or seesaw?
Here are two lovely excerpts from a post on Yahoo Groups explaining how to get pics:

" DO NOT TELL THEM YOUVE SEEN THERE PICS UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCE. This is a sure way to prevent them from ever showing again.

". Another, more difficult way, is to try to befreind the girl and gain her trust. This can be extremely time consuming but has generated unbelievable results for me before.

I'm assuming the pos then goes and posts them on Yahoo Groups.

I freely admit I like some of the pictures (mainly the ones of girls flashing),
but doing the "more difficult way" is just a bit too disgusting.

I like what I said here better than anything I can think of to say now.

The gender test has me as a guy with a skirt
Probably right except that I don't wear women's clothes.
(I was in the white section of that bar, I guess slightly to the right)

There are an awful lot of guys doing themself on Webcamnow.
Not the reason i go there, I just see it in 90% of the previews.
Being gay would have some advantages.
Like the men's locker room, gay bars (everyone's a potential hookup), easier to move in furniture, ...

But not for me.

From page 44

Note : this picture is from Yablonsky, not some weird site.

I'm in the mood to make a prediction
I'm sure this won't seem politically correct but I don't really GaF.

I had a somewhat similiar prediction 8 or 9 years ago.
Back then, certain black leaders were getting away with ridiculous statements.
Two examples (out of many):
1) "America only wages war against people of color".
In the same paragraph, the writer mentioned how we fought the Germans in WW2. And they didn't mention the Revolutionary War(British), The civil war(white peple who supported slavery), WW1(Europeans), and the Cold War(Russians).

2) "America is the most racist country on earth"
If you know a little about countries like Japan, Russia, Serbia, and Rawanda, this statement should seem a little off.
And some Arab countries with protesters shouting "Death to the Jews" - seems a tad bit more racist there.
And try comparing olympic teams sometime.

Anyway, my feeling back then was that they were not going to be able to get away with all these bullshit statements much longer, and that seems to be true. I'm sure there are some still making the statements, but not that many people listen to them anymore.

My prediction now is that gays will not be looked at as victimized saints much longer.
Maybe a few more years.
I'm thinking this partly because things like that that aren't true can't hold up forever.
And partly because of recent things I've seen or heard of, like Cliff Labonski's page, Eminem's gay bashing lyrics on an album that sold 8 million copies (and the gay bashing lyrics that I'm predicting will follow), and the series on showtime that has gay characters who actually do negative things.
Think about it : how many times have you ever seen a gay character on tv kill someone?
You've seen heterosexuals do it thousands of times.
Gays have always been portrayed in the media as people who don't do anything bad.
I think people have been slightly brainwashed and it's not going to last.

I personally have no problem with a person being gay (as long as they're not sexually getting in my face about it), but I think a lot of younger people who will eventually be college aged and beyond will not have the same opinion.
And I think there's a lot of people now who don't have the same opinion but they don't say anything because you're not supposed too.
And it's my prediction that verbal "gay bashing" will become more and more ok in the upcoming years, and the word "fag" - as used by Eminem- will become popular again.

Did you ever notice how all these things that afflict us women begin with male prefixes?

Menstrual cramps
Menopause
GuyNacology

Current Music : Memories of WIYY

They say I'm lazy but it takes all my time
everybody say oh yeah

Current Music : Joe Walsh

Just thought I'd mention
I generally take showers (and shave) everyday.
Thankyou.

It's Ralph Malph?
I always thought it was Ralph Mouth.

And it wasn't until I was around 19 that I realized it was from the, town of Bedrock.
I thought it was "Bhrama, town of Bedrock".
Not that it made sense, just that that's what it sounded like.
"Thru the courtesy of Fred's two feet"?
Got that when I was around 19 too.

I'm thinking this might actually be a record for the longest i've gone without taking a shower
Possibly a lifetime record.
I'm not sure if this sounds depressing or not but i'm actually in a good mood.
I think it's the html, the accomplishment.
The begginging of the end of my lack of self esteem, lack of doing anything.
Oh happy days!

Hmmmmmm, new LJ pic?

I 'm thinking the last time I left the house was Sunday when I went to Price Club
Current Mood : thinking that was the last time I took a shower, but also getting psyched over the html. Besides, it feels really good to take a shower after not having taken one for awhile. I'm just being a temporary shut-in.

I cannot believe how easy html is
I need something easy but worthwhile to start out with.
I bought "Learning HTML 4.0" at Price Club (my fourth or so html book) except this one I'm actually reading.
This stuff is no where close to being hard.
Get this down and move on to C++?

We'll see.

AC DC sounds decent after White Zombie.

Just lettin you know.

I have to drive 30 miles or so to get the only salsa that i like much. (Love it, just that I don't really like all the others, they're all tomato puree)

They got rid of Strawberry-Banana Certs many years ago.

I haven't seen Cherry Certs in three years (my Strawberry-Banana replacement)

Price Club got rid of Now and Laters (my certs replacement)

I can walk into furniture stores and not see a single couch that I like.

etc etc blah blah blah

Said what beth batbalone make you tealgray
And I never sound the same!
I'm right at the mouse but I'm using the soundblaster remote to change the volume b/c it's so much fun!
And the new Creative Lava sucks.
They basically put ads on it.
Why not put a McDonalds in the Grand Canyon.
Tasteless dorks.

Current Music Kai Tracid

And you're dancing to my beat.

All is I need was a Honda
Never wrote that before.

Up early?
Up late.

I can't spell VW but I got a porsche
Cause I'm a blonde, yeah yeah yeah

I knew about the "Ctrl" key.
Just accidently learned "Ctrl-Shift".
That will save me at least five years of tedious (left click) tapping.

I think we're alone now
There doesn't seem to be anyone around.

I can't even remember (my) name right now.
All i can -oh, just remembered.
I was going to say i could only think of Debbie Gibson and Tiffany, but then i remembered.

I saw an old clip of (me) from Star Search a few weeks ago.
It wasn't hard to see that i was an evil little girl.
Surprise surprise.
Eminem's a talented but abused child.
Me on the other hand?
I'm evil.

Like my smile?

There is a wedgie on my freinds list again.
Maybe it was my smile that did it.

Non-boring television :
The last 10 or 15 minutes of Maximum Exposure.

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